Well it's been a while since my last post...

so I figure I should write something, even if it isn't on the topic of the blog.

Life has been fairly busy for the last while with lots of travel. I got to visit my children that I haven't seen for about two years or so. My parents (aka the childrens grandparents) also were there at the same time.

Needless to say, there was quite a bit of lawyering and etc. that we went through to get the visit arranged due to the monther's (aka my EX-fiance) unreasonablness. We did get there, and did manage to see the children, though, initally not under the agreed conditions.

Regardless, even though the conditions that were agreed on didn't happen (this was for the first day), it went as well as it possibly could have. It's more the principle of the thing. When your spending money on lawyers to get conditions agreed up, one should stick to those terms agreed upon. One *SHOULDN'T* be trying to force a confrontation. Especially infront of the kids. That's just bad form.

The next two days were full. We all had a wonderfull time together. Visiting the science center, playing in the park, seeing movies, swimming and playing on the hotel's water slide, and just getting to hang out was fantastic.

I've always done my best to keep intouch with the children, although it's not been an easy thing. When your given an assigned time to call, and there is no answer, time after time again can be very dishearting. All one can do is keep trying. What is even worse is when the babysitter answers, and one can hear the kids in the background, and being told to call back at some other time when their mother is around. Heartbreaking it is. Bad Form, especially when it's when she stated the time and day. I mean honestly, what is the absolute worst that could happen talking over the phone that she feels the need to "be around" when we talk? I'm arcoss an international border (I'm in Chicago, kids are in Canada) and a good 1500 miles away. If your bitter with me, fine, be bitter with me, but don't let your bitterness flow to my parents (which have done nothing other than try to be grandparents). And most of all, don't let your bitterness use the kids as pawns. As I said before, and will say again, BAD FORM.

Since the visit, things have improved. I've called more often, and have managed to get through which is really nice.

My little princess (my daughter) just had her birthday, and to quote her, "Every thing you sent was *EXACTLY* what I wanted." That made me feel so good (and yes, I did have some help picking out some of the stuff, thank you, you know who you are, and also thanks to the coulple grade twos we consulted with at the store).

My big guy's (my son) birthday is coming up shortly also. I know I've got stuff for him that he's going to love.

I can wait to talk to them again. I miss them lots, and wish I could visit more often which is why I so treasure the time when I do get to talk to them. Know that I love you both. That is somthing that will never change.